DANGEROUS GOODS CARGO YOU ARE GOING DOWN BECAUSE YOURS TRULY HAVE HAD ENOUGH!

Baby steps

The moment I saw your name popped up on my screen.

My mind went blank and blood rushed through my head and neck.

Scared yet excited.

Helpless yet glad.

I was glad that at least you thought of me, even though it's only because you needed my help.

And help I will so that I can move on.

Baby steps.

No replacement or a rebound but purely my own effort to put this behind.

Because I'm not selfish and cold-blooded.

Because I'm more than that.

Because I still care.

Nyahhh don't know what I'm blabbering about.

Must be PMS.

Pre-Monday depression .___________.

Rockabybaby

Day 13 - Favourite Part of the Day

I'd say when I am on my bed with the air-conditioner on full blast and my comfy blanket wrapped around me. Sleeping has got to be my favourite pastime because it's when I am detached from reality. It's a form of escape because everything is possible while I am asleep. No barriers. No boundaries. Except when I dreamt about work and whatnot lahhh *shudders* which I am getting a lot of recently.

THAT is nightmare :/

Depressed

Day 12 - Nature

When was the last time I was close to nature? I cannot remember.
It's probably Broga Hill which is last year?!
Holy moly.
This is just sad TT_____TT
Why is this challenge making me feel sad and depress?

Kerou

Day 11 - Something beautiful

My baby niece. She is the sunshine of our family. Maybe because she is the first baby girl after two boys. Lol. But no doubt something beautiful in my life and hopefully she shall remain so as long as it's possible. Innocent and unharmed.

I am okay.

Okay so I'm still wide awake at this hour even though tomorrow is Monday and I AM WORKING. Gah! I slept too much while on my way back from the little raya getaway.

Am taking up the Yummy Mummy in Training's challenge to blog every day in August. I know. It's August 12 now. I am 12 days late. But I'll start from Day 10 onwards. Hope to keep this going. So here goes nothing.

Day 10 - How are you?

I remember two weeks ago I broke down when I was asked this simple question. Three words that you hear almost everyday. I could have brushed it aside and pretended to be okay. But I could not find any strength to do it any more. Maybe it's because of the question. Maybe it's because he initiated that question. Maybe it's the combination of both. I have no idea.

After two weeks, how am I now?

I had better days but I had far worst days as well *chuckles* Fickle, fickle me. 

I am okay. Vulnerable but okay.

Just because

I met him today.
I saw his face.
I heard his voice.
We smiled.
We talked.
We laughed.
But I recalled.
We cannot happen.
Because I am Chinese.
Because he is a Malay.
Because we are in Malaysia.
Because he met someone else first.
Because this is fate.
Because we are never meant to be.

I still can't figure out this title thingy after more than 6 years of blogging.

Last Published: 5th October 2012.

Current date: 28th July 2013.

It's been more than half a year since I last updated! And that with me owning a smartphone already. Gah.

Okay, first I need to apologize to my blog, berubinlah. Sorry for abandoning you for so long. I am back now (I hope). Reading back the posts that I had published last year, I could still feel the heartache. Although not as painful as back then, but it still sting a little. But I'm glad I wrote what I felt back then, some is still in the draft box. Too much to be posted. I still want to keep things private. You never know who will come across your blog and who is actually reading it. Hah! Anyhows, I'll try to update every now and then. It's time for me to gain back the control of my life, my time and my destiny. Fuhhh suddenly so philosophical.

So hello, blogsphere. Lim Rubin is back and she will be rambling more than ever.

Love.

It's friday night

Hello, hello.
Right now I'm running away from reality.
This week is officially the busiest week since September.
Presentation on Monday. Industrial visits on Tuesday and Thursday. And midterm on Friday.
Plus I was sick since Sunday.
Feverish, headache with a badly inflamed throat.
But I'm better now.
The following weeks wouldn't be any busier after this.
*does the celebratory dance*
Oh walking around in malls, eating good food, reading a good book, not feeling so lethargic all the time, how I missed you?

Enough about me though cos what's most important is I have a baby niece now! Yay! This means adorable clothes with baby smell and lots of cooing and cuteness overload (´▽｀)

We are truly blessed :)

"hiatus"

I can't begin to count and list what had happened during the past month.
So many things happened within a blink of an eye.
So many ups and downs.
So many heartbreaks.
So many laughter.
So many anger.
Everything mixing into one.
One moment I'm anxious.
Another I'm doubtful.
In the end disappointed.
Have I lost that thing I hold dear to my heart?
I have not an idea.
It seems so.
I'm holding on to my principles.
Black and white.

But there's of course, happy memories as well.
Celebrating birthday in another state.
Impromptu trip to gamblers' paradise.
Pre-graduation trip to beaches.
Great times with the best company someone can have.

I don't know if this semester break is what I needed to get away from it all.
It's difficult to pick up the pace once you've stopped for a little while.
But I'm still grateful that I'm back to the comfort of home.
Paradoxical eh?
I know.

Soon, I'll return for a new semester.
I do feel reluctant.
More so as I know things will be different.
But duty calls.
Eight more months and I'm free of this commitment.
This commitment that I hope would keep me busy for that eight months.
*chuckles*
My love/hate relationship with this commitment.

Hello, I hope I'm back for good.
Blogger doesn't have character limits, unlike Twitter.
Peace!