Disappointed

Well, I woke up today totally not expecting anything else but to try my best to complete my tasks on hand. Little did I expect that I would be ran over twice with the Porsche Cayanne (le boss drives one). Okay, I'm being dramatic here. Above statement is not to be taken literally. But please let me whine a bit here cause that was what I felt like all evening.

Incident I
"I am disappointed with both of you."

Reason: because ze superior and I failed to monitor our inventory
the real reason: because we failed to monitor our MAILS where at 7.23pm we are suppose to be clutching our smartphones, checking for incoming mails since we're not in front of our laptops. Conclusion: Ze boss got to the mail first before the both of us could attend to it.

I didn't know that it's stipulated in the contract that I've signed over my time and life to the company.

Incident II
"It's important to learn about Incoterms. Go attend the course."

Reason: n/a
the real reason: n/a
conclusion: three freshies were already registered for the course. and as we were granted three spots only, I didn't get to attend. Eventhough le boss was given the choice to choose who to go.

Well, my dear boss, the feeling is mutual now.

Hell yes I am furious. Then it slowly turned into that hollow, gray and wet feeling of disappointment.
I guess it's my turn now. But I'll save ze boss the trouble and in turn excuse myself to the "cold palace".

PMS

Sometimes I wonder if it's the person or the feeling of being in love that I miss. Some would say you miss what he's able to "offer" emotionally, so in turn your brain thinks that you miss that person.
On the other hand, some would argue that at the end, that "feeling" that you miss is caused by that person. So ultimately you do miss him. I mean how many person out there is able to make you feel the way you had for him?

Understand? *chuckles*

The first cut is indeed the deepest. This I do strongly agree with. No matter how much you have moved on/recovered, you can never completely forget how he made your heart fluttered then.

Honestly

Just got back from a drinking session and I'm half drunk, thought about my long-abandoned blog out of the blue. My right ear is stuck right now while sitting in this dark room with only my long-abandoned laptop's light illuminating the room. Random much? Yes, it'll probably wouldn't make much sense when I read this tomorrow. As much as I do not want to admit to this in person due to my self-conscience-ness or however you spell that, but I'd still like to believe in love. Believe that someone is out there for me. For you. For everyone.

p/s I long for a karaoke session too.