I am okay.

Okay so I'm still wide awake at this hour even though tomorrow is Monday and I AM WORKING. Gah! I slept too much while on my way back from the little raya getaway.

Am taking up the Yummy Mummy in Training's challenge to blog every day in August. I know. It's August 12 now. I am 12 days late. But I'll start from Day 10 onwards. Hope to keep this going. So here goes nothing.

Day 10 - How are you?

I remember two weeks ago I broke down when I was asked this simple question. Three words that you hear almost everyday. I could have brushed it aside and pretended to be okay. But I could not find any strength to do it any more. Maybe it's because of the question. Maybe it's because he initiated that question. Maybe it's the combination of both. I have no idea.

After two weeks, how am I now?

I had better days but I had far worst days as well *chuckles* Fickle, fickle me. 

I am okay. Vulnerable but okay.

Just because

I met him today.
I saw his face.
I heard his voice.
We smiled.
We talked.
We laughed.
But I recalled.
We cannot happen.
Because I am Chinese.
Because he is a Malay.
Because we are in Malaysia.
Because he met someone else first.
Because this is fate.
Because we are never meant to be.

I still can't figure out this title thingy after more than 6 years of blogging.

Last Published: 5th October 2012.

Current date: 28th July 2013.

It's been more than half a year since I last updated! And that with me owning a smartphone already. Gah.

Okay, first I need to apologize to my blog, berubinlah. Sorry for abandoning you for so long. I am back now (I hope). Reading back the posts that I had published last year, I could still feel the heartache. Although not as painful as back then, but it still sting a little. But I'm glad I wrote what I felt back then, some is still in the draft box. Too much to be posted. I still want to keep things private. You never know who will come across your blog and who is actually reading it. Hah! Anyhows, I'll try to update every now and then. It's time for me to gain back the control of my life, my time and my destiny. Fuhhh suddenly so philosophical.

So hello, blogsphere. Lim Rubin is back and she will be rambling more than ever.

Love.

It's friday night

Hello, hello.
Right now I'm running away from reality.
This week is officially the busiest week since September.
Presentation on Monday. Industrial visits on Tuesday and Thursday. And midterm on Friday.
Plus I was sick since Sunday.
Feverish, headache with a badly inflamed throat.
But I'm better now.
The following weeks wouldn't be any busier after this.
*does the celebratory dance*
Oh walking around in malls, eating good food, reading a good book, not feeling so lethargic all the time, how I missed you?

Enough about me though cos what's most important is I have a baby niece now! Yay! This means adorable clothes with baby smell and lots of cooing and cuteness overload (´▽｀)

We are truly blessed :)

"hiatus"

I can't begin to count and list what had happened during the past month.
So many things happened within a blink of an eye.
So many ups and downs.
So many heartbreaks.
So many laughter.
So many anger.
Everything mixing into one.
One moment I'm anxious.
Another I'm doubtful.
In the end disappointed.
Have I lost that thing I hold dear to my heart?
I have not an idea.
It seems so.
I'm holding on to my principles.
Black and white.

But there's of course, happy memories as well.
Celebrating birthday in another state.
Impromptu trip to gamblers' paradise.
Pre-graduation trip to beaches.
Great times with the best company someone can have.

I don't know if this semester break is what I needed to get away from it all.
It's difficult to pick up the pace once you've stopped for a little while.
But I'm still grateful that I'm back to the comfort of home.
Paradoxical eh?
I know.

Soon, I'll return for a new semester.
I do feel reluctant.
More so as I know things will be different.
But duty calls.
Eight more months and I'm free of this commitment.
This commitment that I hope would keep me busy for that eight months.
*chuckles*
My love/hate relationship with this commitment.

Hello, I hope I'm back for good.
Blogger doesn't have character limits, unlike Twitter.
Peace!

People make choices every single day.
Whether on what you're having for lunch, which pants to put on, what you're going to say to the annoying person next to you.
I'm getting a lot of responsibilities thus testing my decision-making skill.
A lot which is annoyingly easy yet so difficult :(((

Hello, you.

Hello there, I'm Miss Potato, Mister Potato's younger sister.

Hope I find you alright.

Are you staring at my moustache?

It's okay.

You don't have to apologize.

I get it all the time.

It runs in the family, that's why.

Our dad, Potato Senior, have very strong genes.

Oh please don't run away.

I'm only trying to make friends.

sing the happy, happy song

I'm going to say that today is indeed the best day of the year!
I think I was able to live by the quote when life gives you lemon, make lemonade!
I was over the moon (still am) when the presentation that my group did was able to receive compliments from the lecturer. Before the presentation, we had been stressing for a week about our presentation.
After planning out our service, we brainstormed on Tuesday night and decided to change our direction. We thought of going all out to sell our service, not caring if others would laugh at us.
I guess all the hard work and midnight oil are worth it. We were able to impress the lecturer and when she found out that we are not marketing students but logistics instead, she was even impressed.
Finally something to pick me up from this slump.
This is a very strong booster that I really need in a time like this.
With it came constructive advises from the lecturer as well regarding our weaknesses.
Mine is that I did not look much at the audiences but instead I was looking at the lecturer only.
It's hard not to glance at her every once in a while, she's really got that strong aura going on around her. LOL.
This will be something for me to work on for the next presentation.
And I do not regret forming this group because in the end, we had a lot of fun.
The rest is bonus :)

I have no idea if everything that had happened since should be considered as blessings or curses.
Or is it blessings in disguise?
I do hope it's all blessings in disguise that someone up there had in mind in order to shape me into a better person.
I hope to find a beautiful rainbow behind the mountain after this exhausting climb.
Not a sand storm ready to strike.
Tralalalalala

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade!

I'm trying my very best to live by this quote.
Trying very hard to fight off the pessimistic side of me.
Trying not to retreat back.
I will not bow down to whatever that comes in my way.
I WILL NOT.